Tremor’s back

I was very sick a few years back. So sick that I told myself I never want to experience it again; the feeling of living on the line between life and death.

Now, the feeling is back to haunt me.

Initially I thought it could be discomfort due to the curry I had for dinner last night, but it turned out to be the least I wanted it to be.

Doctor prescribed me relaxation pills and I am to go back for a follow-up check up the following week. I was even asked to quit my job and if need be, avoid contact with people and situations that might cause great impact on my emotions.

This is bad.

And even at this bad state, my mom is still neither compassionate nor sympathetic towards me. We got into a big quarrel again and for the first time, I felt difficulty in breathing. Seeing me gasping for breath; she continued her yells and screams.

This is my mom.

A parent who wanted me dead since I was young.

A parent I always feel unfortunate to be living with.