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我把那些不愿放大也不愿删除的记忆写在了这里。。。 - anonymous

2010年3月31日水曜日

Thank You ALL

I sincerely appreciate the kind thoughts of the people around who cares about me.

The past weeks was a horrible one packed with many sad incidents in my life.

I have been gloomy since and nothing seems to be able to brighten up my days.

Troubles, problems, and burdens I have been swallowing are piling and it’s draining my energy each day, leaving me with no energy to even smile sincerely.

People who aren’t even closely related to me like colleagues can even feel the dull aura around me, and I sincerely appreciate their kind words of concern.

I am sorry if I’ve made people who care about me seeing me in this state. I am sorry if I have made them moody too. I am also sorry if I have said words that hurt them unknowingly.

Special thanks to CBG & BIL, BD, VY, Toby & Ms See who have been trying very hard to cheer me up despite of their own problems (sorry if I’ve disappointed you all with my forced laughter).

I know how it feels and how exhausting and disheartening it can be seeing and trying to cheer people you really care when you are already feeling very low yourself, and I really understand & appreciate all of your kind actions and intentions.

Thank you.

2010年3月25日木曜日

Junior

He captured my attention the first time we met.
Greeting the family and guests with his charismatic, big round eyes.
Chicken was what he loves.
Wagging his tail, tongue hanging out, looking at our plates with his captivating lovely eyes.
Following Mimi, resting by the door, waiting for her to be home safely.
This is the ever faithful, protective and simple, Junior.

Whenever I go over Benne’s place,
I would grab the opportunity to stroke him, and greet him with a pleasant smile as I would to my love ones.
There were times when he looked enchantingly at me, as if wanting me to pay attention to him;
and other times when he would bark at me at the doorstep, until I stepped in the house, patting him after Benne’s reassurance that I’m not a bad person.
The times I enjoyed most were when he come to me and rested in between my thighs, following me when he smell chicken on my plate, when he gently walked in Benne’s room, sleep talking in his sweet dreams, and seeing him grinning happily when he is on the sofa, like a King.
This is the always charming, King Junior.

Junior might be a dog to some,
But he is definitely not to those whose lives he have changed.
He is so much more than a son, a brother, a nephew, a cousin, a friend in the family and people around him.
For this I am sure.

Receiving the news from Benne, I was devastated.

This is the time when I couldn’t control my tears,
When my mind couldn’t concentrate.
I could imagine the pain and lost in Junior, and the family,
A treasured family member whom they love so dearly.
I wanted to go over to see Junior.
I wanted to visit Benne.
But the latter preferred me not to.

Yes, I should respect Benne,
And be braver and grieve for the loss in my heart.
This is the least and only thing I can do.

Please take care Aunty Alice & Benne's brother, Kris.

Please be strong Benne.

Junior,
You have brought lovely memories to me these period,
And you and these memories will always be kept in me.
It's not goodbye, as you will always remain in the hearts of us.

2010年3月21日日曜日

Wonders of Tears

This is what they say in short, crying helps improve your body, mind and soul.

* Helping vision (And I am so worried that over-crying will cause blindness~)
* Kill bacteria
* Improve mood (Temporary only I feel~)
* Removing toxins
* Reduce stress (Temporary too~)
* Build community (Erm, maybe? But I wouldn’t want to improve my communication / socialization skills through crying~)
* Relieve feelings (Temporary too~)

Source: http://unusual-wow.blogspot.com/2009/10/7-wonders-of-tears.html

It’s okay if you cry, but frankly speaking for me, problems will still be there after having a/many hard cries. One might still be thinking of it again and again, and this is worse if you cry. Coz you’re thinking of the incident, etc so you feel for it and cry.

I hate to cry. It makes me feel weak and pathetic. But it’s precisely because I’m feeling weak that made me cry, sometimes uncontrollably.

However, I have to say that in times when you can’t do anything to rectify the situation, when you are feeling awful over matter, etc when you just don’t feel like talking or doing anything but let your tears drown you, please go ahead.

Cry your lungs out. This is the least that you can do to make yourself feel better.

2010年3月19日金曜日

Boredom that leads to craziness

Please pardon us~

Finally!

I’m gonna be a jie mei finally and I’m really anticipating the day to arrive!

I have long wanted to experience being one of the jie meis though Janice kept telling me how tiring it is to be involved in one of it after her many experiences being one.

I am so HAPPY for my friend who’s finally committing her life as a violent ‘wife’ soon!

Guess there’ll be no more guest coming over for reunion dinner in the years ahead but I’ll definitely have an extra red packet right my dear friend? Hohoho~

I have to shed some weight and fats hopefully by next year for the big day! And white dress? Here I come!

2010年3月18日木曜日

Hidden meanings of body moles

"The Chinese believe moles can be lucky or unlucky depending on where they are located, what colour they are, and how large they appear in proportion to our body. A mole can be a tiny black speck on the feet signifying opportunities for travel, or it can be a dark red dot on the hand, often interpreted as indicating a particular skill or luck associated with one’s hands. Moles on our backs denote some kind of burden we have to carry, while moles at the front of our bodies are said to attract success luck...."

"Moles on the front of the body generally bring good fortune..."


"Moles on your back usually signify some kind of burden..."


To read more....

Distinctive ones from my body..
Mole 3 - You are popular and efficient and your life is one busy challenge after another. You do not lack for work and are much in demand at social events. This is probably because you are likely to hold a high position with responsibilities to match.

Mole 4 - A mole close to the middle of the front chest here indicates you must be careful about your eating habits, especially if the mole is black and prominent. On the plus side, if the mole is light-coloured, it means your husband/wife loves you a lot.

Mole 28 - A mole here suggests you should take care of your money, or you could find yourself losing some of your hard-earned cash.

Mole 51 - This person has a tendency to be slovenly and messy.

Mole 53 - If you find a mole on the back of your hand, keep it, for it means you will be earning lots of money!

Mole 57 - You will have to endure lots of gossiping and backstabbing in your life if you have this mole.

2010年3月17日水曜日

当你没事干时。。。的反省。

这是一章在做大号时的突发感想。

我的固执 :我的支柱、我的障碍、我的烦恼。

相比之下,我的固执,我的任性,我的顽固胜过于我的好奇心。

是好?是坏?

有时明明知道它(固执)是祸,但又因为它而没理智的把自己推入火海、深深地坠落悬崖,死得如此凄惨。

这是一场非常不符合逻辑的感想。

有时真得非常讨厌镜子里的我和我那复杂的脑袋。

为什么要带给自己怎么多伤感与烦恼?

我讨厌我的它(固执),但又同时不能没有它。

啊~~ 不知道我在写什么啦!

2010年3月16日火曜日

316


The day when they first changed their status from ‘single’ to ‘attached'…
The day when they became known as ‘boyfriend and girlfriend’…
The day when they are lawfully announced as ‘husband and wife’…

They have conquered many battles throughout the course of their simple yet tough relationship.
Their for each other remain strong till now.

It’s their 4th year marriage anniversary and I sincerely present my effortless yet genuine gift to the couple.

To my dear Sister and Brother-in-law…

It’s gonna be another new beginning with a new form of in the family. May both of you be blessed everyday with wonderful happenings surrounding your life.


Bee bee, B.M.

2010年3月15日月曜日

[Chinese] Psytopic Test

[Results:]

ISFJ (内向+实感+情感+判断)

沉静,友善,有责任感和谨慎。能坚定不移地承担责任。做事贯彻始终、不辞劳苦和准确无误。忠诚,替人着想,细心;往往记着他所重视的人的种种微小事情,关心别人的感受。努力创造一个有秩序、和谐的工作和家居 环境。

ISFJ型的人忠诚、有奉献精神和同情心,理解别人的感受。他们意志清醒而有责任心,乐于为人所需。 ISFJ型的人十分务实,他们喜欢平和谦逊的人。他们喜欢利用大量的事实情况,对于细节则有很强的记力。他们耐心地 对待任务的整个阶段,喜欢事情能够清晰明确。 ISFJ型的人具有强烈的职业道德,所以他们如果知道自己的行为真正有用时,会对需要完成之事承担责任。他们准确系统地完成任务。他们具有传统的价值观,十分保守。他们利用符合实际的判断标准做决定,通过出色的注重实际的态度增加了稳定性。 ISFJ型的人平和谦虚、勤奋严肃。他们温和、圆通,支持朋友和同伴。他们乐于协助别人,喜欢实际可行地帮助他人。他们利用个人热情与人交往,在困难中与他人和睦相处。ISFJ型的人不喜欢表达个人情感,但实际上对于大多数的情况和事件都具有强烈的个人反应。他们关心、保护朋友,愿意为朋友献身,他们有为他人服务的意识,愿意完成他们的责任和义 务。

您适合的职业有:

• 内科医生
营养师
图书/档案管理员
室内装潢设计师
• 顾客服务代表
• 记账员
特殊教育教师
酒店管理
• 人事管理人员
• 电脑操作员
• 信贷顾问
• 零售业主
• 房地产代理或经纪人
艺术人员
• 商品规划师
语言病理学者
• 审计师
• 会计
• 财务经理
• 办公室行政管理
• 后勤和供应管理
• 中层经理
• 公务(法律、税务)执行人员
• 银行信贷员
• 成本估价师
• 保险精算师
• 税务经纪人
• 税务检查员
• 机械、电气工程师
• 计算机程序员
• 数据库管理员
• 地质
• 气象学家
• 法律研究者
• 律师
• 外科医生
• 药剂师
实验室技术人员
• 牙科医生
• 医学研究员

若你是一个照顾者型
你是成为完美父母的最佳人选。你最大的欲望就是用你体贴、温柔、乐于付出的方式去照
顾他人,这样的特质让其他人感受到安全、温暖及受到呵护。 你的最高指标是建立一个家庭,对你而言这比事业或其他兴趣更为重要。虽然你的工作或许很顺利,但在你的生命中,却没有什么比照顾小孩和另一半更让你感到快乐的事情了。

当你恋爱时
作为一个照顾者型,你相信爱情象征着安全感、责任、付出和结婚生子。这些话也许会吓
坏某些恋爱类型,但对你而言,这些正是你所期许的爱情。 和其他追求安全者一样,你在一段感情开始时总是小心翼翼。你要确认未来伴侣是一个忠心和可靠的配偶和父母。 一旦你决定了你的伴侣,你会对他维持一种不会动摇的奉献。即使那段感情很糟糕,也不愿放弃,因为你把对另一半的付出看得非常重要。有些时候,你会因为遵守传统的规定而受苦。你也许会身处于一段很差劲的感情中而无法抽身,即使你应该离开。

[Sources:]
http://www.psytopic.com/mag/post/mbti-career-personality-test-psytopic-special-edition.html
http://www.haibao.cn/forum/board/9/207372/?page=1

2010年3月12日金曜日

Thank you Boss!

It could be because of my personality that somehow, directly or indirectly sincerely appreciates the efforts, be it many or little that my superior put in for me.

Though his kind intention went down the drain ultimately, I really am thankful.

No promises, but I will at least try my best in maintaining my standard for now.

2010年3月10日水曜日

Nice Ladies

I don’t usually use my umbrella although I carry one almost every day just in case it started pouring and yah, ONLY when it’s raining heavily.

There’s this approximately 5 mins walk to the MRT station and it was drizzling this morning.

Yah~ it was drizzling so I didn’t open my umbrella at all, but the rain got heavy in about a minute and “by right” I should use my umbrella, but I didn’t~ It was only a few minutes away to my destination and I believe I can avoid getting drenched with my fast walking speed.

Okay, enough of all the boring story….

There were 2 ladies who offered to shelter me to the train station. I rejected the 1st politely as I’m rushing to avoid getting totally drenched, but the sudden change of traffic light signals obstructed my rushing moment and at this moment, the rain “stopped”.

Another lady was sheltering me! *watery eyes*

(How I wished it was some handsome and gentle hunk like those romantic drama scenarios *smack!* be thankful Lin Xundi!!)

I am really guilty for causing all the troubles due to my stubbornness in not using my umbrella, and I really deserved some “punishments” from the change of traffic light signals. But I am sincerely grateful to the 2 ladies who offered to share their shelter with me. It had definitely embarked my day with a smile.

THANK YOU!

=)

2010年3月8日月曜日

ELMO!

She is so adorable! So active! She is ELMO! Ophe’s “daughter”~


With no experience in carrying a dog, it’s really quite exciting while on the other hand nervous that I might hurt the few months old dog. Well, I didn’t manage to carry her in the end coz she was fidgeting about looking for her male owner.

But I’ve got few licks from her! She’s simply such a honey~.

=D

2010年3月4日木曜日

SMILE

It has been weeks since I checked on my lovely friends’ updates. And reading Lili’s entries always never fail to knock some senses and make a smile on my face. Though it’s always lengthy and I am not very hardworking in reading paragraphs, I’ll still do it for her, my supportive friend!

Quote from Lili: If that someone is meant to be your friend, good friend, best friend, etc. he or she will be and always will be. Just like how I can be acquainted with Omma, Jan & JY and eventually becoming buddies. And for all the stupid things that we have done to be acquainted with XMM, Toshio, etc. were simply fruitless….. These are people who walked into my life unexpectedly.

*nods* Totally agree with her. Like the period when I was so wrong getting all disappointed with Ah Pang, treating her like a stranger and we “reconciled” unknowingly by miracle and ta-da! My BFF still!

It is simply wonderful to have true friends whom you might not keep in contact daily, you might not miss him/her, but you know that deep down you can always count on them when you need them (though they might not be available~ =x).

The highlighted one is especially memorable. Well, It was REALLY silly of us then plotting ways to know XMM, Toshio, etc. But it was enjoyable, spicing up our poly life and it sure remained as one of our fond friendship memories with all the plots, and “detective hunts” in shopping mall etc., I hope? So not fruitless yah? =)

** I don’t know why but the incident of me kicking Lili’s slippers down the level only to end up in an unsuccessful “revenge” suddenly pops out of my mind now~**

Not forgetting the “extras” who passed by in the process of knowing our “targets” like the most exclusive “Little Mole” that I believe if we were to bump into him or recall the many topics we had about him, we will still be crying and laughing hilariously non-stop for minutes attracting weird glances from people around us. Ha! =x

2010年3月3日水曜日

It’s the A.I fever again!

Well, well, after experiencing once again the American Idol (A.I) fever I’ve missed for years through last season with Adam Lambert, Kris Allen, Allison Iraheta etc, I was really anticipating another round of exciting competition this season despite Paula Abdul’s hoo-ha.

Guess I’ll have to watch more of the contestant’s performances for me to get really anticipated and supportive of my preferred idols this season coz I have not really seen any idol this season that made me feel the wow impact I had on Adam Lambert.

But so far, I do like the voice of Andrew Garcia, Crystal Bowersox, Didi Benami, Joe Munoz and Lee Dewyze. Pleasant to my ear, I like Joe’s R&B way of singing in the first top 24 eliminating round. I’m always impressed with vocals that kind of “swayed” beautifully (erm, I’m bad at describing~) and I was especially impressed with Andrew's rendition of one of Paula's song (well, I'm bad at remembering song titles too~) on his first Hollywood’s audition.

Andrew Garcia

Crystal Bowersox

Didi Benami

Joe Munoz (voted out~)

Lee Dewyze

I was kind of nervous when Didi was called last who made through the top 10 Girls, and I was really disappointed when Joe was voted out against Tim Urban. Not that I have a thing with Tim, but I find Joe performed better.