Life Experiences

The International FM channel is playing one of the instrumentals from the soundtrack of the Korean drama Stairways to Heaven; one of my favourite out of the many Korean dramas I've watched while I'm typing this entry.

I remember how much I enjoyed watching sad Korean dramas, crying my lungs out, seeing myself as the female lead and how my heart aches if the incidents happen to me. But ever since I became single (even though our relationship lasted for only a few months), I never like watching these sad, teary love stories. Not that I've lost hope in love, it's just that the pain in remembering the memories with him even when we're friends is the last emotion I would like to experience now.

It's been over a year since we last communicated pleasantly and I am doing and coping better than I expected. My dear lao tou will tell me things about him at times, but surprisingly I am fine with it. Our dear Lion have been exaggerating things, saying I'm one of the 'successful stories' of a lady that stood up strong after a heavy blow. Thank you thank you~ I'm still coping, so not really successful~

I have been hearing stories about relationships, good and bad that happened to my closer friends recently and all I would like to say is there's no right or wrong when feelings come and go. There's really a no need to apologise when you know you have hurt someone. It's only courtesy if you do. If you really want to be friends with the person that you've hurt, respect his/her decision is the only way to make him/her have the last bit of good impression of you.

Like how I tell my closer friends, I am really thankful that he respected me and left me alone totally. At least I am proud to say I grow stronger alone (so strong that my friends commented I'm becoming cold towards them as well! =x) and this is the most satisfying "case study" that I've solved over the years.

Only you know what's best for you to get well. You can have all the support you want from your friends and family, but ultimately, it's you who're fighting the own battle in you.

To my dear friends, there's always a way out. And it's only you who knows the way out. You'll meet people along the way and it's them who gives you the motivation to the exit.