Juz the sudden urge of blogging after many 'pings' on
msn even when my status is set to 'busy'.
Well well.. sometimes i wonder why long time no chat friends or rather acquaintances will make 'my social life' as the starting topic. Why cant they start off with 'hey.. so
hw's work?' or 'hey.. so
hw's life?'.
Hmm.. Maybe its kinda brilliant of them to narrow down to a topic rather than asking on a general term.
Coz my answer would most probably be the usual '
i'm still alive' or 'not much changes' and full stop.
Asking about my social life is not a bad idea as
i'm not really that sensitive towards that issue. And i can actually talk quite a lot in that topic (well.. i have friends who always come to me for some 'love consultation'.. ^o^v) But somehow, i always got this feeling that they see me as a desperate single freak.
.............. (.=")
I'm not desperate~!! And
i'm not eyeing for anyone at the moment. Well, i do yearn for one that i can depend my future on and one that i feel safe and protected when
i'm with. So..
yar..I'm open to everyone who are keen to know me. I'm not seeking any attention from anyone intentionally. In fact, if you know me well, you'll know that
i'm actually a retard in this kind of
bgr thing. Even when he is in front of me, showing interests in me but i can still be that retard. *
dotz* And i mean, real clueless and senseless of the situation. I think, i dream, but i usually make no moves. Reasons?
Well...
I hate making myself depress over cases of rejections, if any and I have no confident that i am that cup of tea or coffee or whatever beverage for that "stranger".P.S. Don't worry my
besties gfs and
bfs.. Ive gotten over HIM almost completely and yup.. this is NOT the reason for me to stick to my single hood anymore. I swear.
*nod head*
Its common to hear me babbling and going GA-GA about guys and/or the physical traits (
tall, skinny, with specs) and personality (
perseverance in his doings, showering his family & me with care and concern, standing by his family & my side with a non-bias mind) of my ideal partner (in short -
criteria), but...I can never get bothered with it seriously. Err.. i mean everyone is a unique individual and it would be tedious searching for the one that falls in your criteria rite?
'Criteria' is a standard on which a judgment or decision may be based (according to
Websters). Moreover, you ought to respect and accept everyone for who they are (err.. excluding the weird cleaners in the office building and some men who are especially rude and inconsiderate and behave barbarian-
ly etc.). Also, so long as the guy respect, trust and treats you like a "treasure", not taking you for granted, there's really nothing to be picky about.
Another important thing to look out for.. there muz be 'the click' and 'the blink' between.
Haiz.... Can anybody understand the real reason behind 'why
i'm still single?' ???